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I am so grateful for all that I have in life and have become
a firm believer in being happy with what God gave me. Sometimes I sit and wonder why I even considered breast
augmentation? Sure, my friends and family made jokes about me being flat chested and sometimes it would get to
me, otherwise it was in one ear and out the other. I became involved in fitness at the age of 22 and became obsessed
with working out. Well, no-one ever told me the first fat on a women's body to go was the breast. At that time
in my life it really did not matter. I was a full B cup and dropped to a full, perky A cup. Push-up bras were
a wonder.
Then came motherhood, and nursing. The absolute greatest gift in my life, that was seven years ago. My perky
A cup swelled to a full C cup, I was like WOW!!! Of course, I really could not show them off, because I was nursing,
but they were definitely an eye opener for me. A week to the day I stopped nursing, my full C cup shrunk to a
barely saggy A cup. I thought they just needed some time to re-adjust to not being pulled on. A year later, they
were still sagging, and I was only 27 years old, with everything else on my body still standing tall. There began
my obsession with breasts and the possibility of breast augmentation. I looked at every woman with breasts and
was automatically jealous.
I went through every bra that existed. The water bra was the last stop for me for awhile; not for me, I tried
on the smallest size they had (A cup) and could not even fill that out. In fact there was room in the bra from
my breast to where the water padding began. I was devastated; I wasn't even filling out an extra padded water
bra. To make matters worse a trip to Victoria's Secret, and the sales clerk politely told me she did not sell my
size (Barely A).
A couple of more years ticked by, and I'm out shopping with my now five year old son; looking for some new bras.
By then I have given up wearing the sexy and fancy bras. Children, adorable and honest they are; I was holding
up an A cup bra in the women's section and my son plainly told me. "Mommy, that's too big for you".
Needless to say, I agreed with him and head to the pre-teen section with no cup size, just the measure across the
back. At least they have colors now. Yippie! Some variety.
Now, here I was at 32 years old, obsessed with breasts, I just wanted to be able to fill out some lingerie and
look a little more proportioned. I personally know five women who have had a BA and they love it. I used to joke
with my friends that one day I was just going to buy me some. Sitting in my bed and obsessing about breasts, I
decided what I was waiting for. Here I was, financially stable, and could afford it. "Why not?" I thought;
I had been researching this procedure for years, all the good sites.
So, on Wednesday 5 May 2004, I went from a barely A to a full C cup. Oh yeah, I thought, and then the anesthesia
wore off. My first clear thought was "what had I done to myself?"
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Vondell with implants.
"I felt top heavy and off balance, I was really depressed...To be honest, my breast really did
look great, it just was not me."
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Vondell with implants.
My first clear thought was "what had I done to myself?"
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That was followed by a weekend of deep soul searching. On
Saturday I called my PS and expressed my feelings that I just did not feel like myself and did not like the way
I was feeling. I wanted them out. Of course any PS would say, which mine did, "Let's not make and rash decisions".
It was very hard for me to make it through that weekend. Everyday was excruciating for me. I hid in my house
not wanting anyone out of my close circle to see what I had done. I felt top heavy and off balance, I was really
depressed, not eating and crying every time someone called to check on me. It was hard to just accept that I had
made a bad decision and trying desperately to explain that decision to my friends. But, I really did not care
if they understood or not, because they didn't and still don't. I found explanation.com and knew I was not crazy.
I read through the "My stories" and cried, grateful to know others had been there before me and that
someone was thoughtful enough to share what they had been through.
On Sunday, my decision had been made, I felt lighter and surer of myself after deciding that they would be coming
out of me as soon as possible. Monday morning, I was knocking on my PS door for an appointment. On Tuesday, I
once again expressed my feelings, and luckily he listened and did no pressure me. My explant was scheduled for
Wednesday 11 May 2004, a week to the day I was implanted.
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Vondell, shortly after implant removal
" I like being natural"
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Vondell, shortly after implant removal.
"After my explant, I immediately looked
down, and was relieved to see just me."
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I was truly blessed by the OR Staff and my PS's staff. To be honest, my breast really did look great, it just
was not me. Yes, it was my decision to get implants and my decision to have them taken out. What my family and
friends thought, did not weigh on me. True friends, just supported what ever decision I made and allowed me to
cry on their shoulders. After my explant, I immediately looked down, and was relieved to see just me. My cousin
even bought me T-shirt that says, "100% natural, no silicone, no saline, no hair extensions and no fake nails".
I feel great, I am now 4 weeks post explant and look exactly the way I did pre BA, small and little saggy, but
Victoria Secret makes the Very-Sexy push-up that I look great in. I go from my barely A cup to a vivaciously shaped
full B Cup.
Am I still obsessed with breasts, yes more so now? I guess, because they were in my grasp and I just threw them
back. But I'm happy with my decision to have the implants taken out. I will probably always be obsessed with
breasts, but that's okay. I know already that they are not for me. I had them, did not like them and had them
taken out. I like being natural.
My PS was Dr. Michael Archer, Fort Walton Beach
FL, of Emerald Cost Plastic Surgery
www.cosmeticplastic-surgery.com
I'm not really sure if he has more experience in en-bloc
removal. But do check the website, he is board
certified.
Please feel free to contact me directly at Vondell32@yahoo.com
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